When life gives you a few bumps...

The blog suffers.

I have been away from Bakers Love now for what seems like a decade in the blogsphere.  To be honest I have not been keeping up with Facebook or Twitter either.  So what is going on you ask?  Well, a few things.  First is that I have a class this month, and after a few months hiatus from the rigorsof school, I am having a tough time focusing on all of my assignments.  That is small potatoes though, in a few weeks that class will be over and I get to move on.

Secondly, Rex has hit a rough patch.  When Rex hits a rough patch, we all hit the rough patch to a certain degree.   About a month ago he had an extremely bad day at school that  snowballed into a horrendous day which resulted in an alternative placement at a school for kids with emotional needs that can not be met at a traditional school.  I will give more details on that later.  The transition to this new school has been different, but for me mostly.  I can't help but feel like I missed 'SOMETHING' and could be more helpful to my son.  There is guilt that I am not doing enough combined with the guilt that I have for wishing I could have a life outside of counseling appointments, IEP meetings, and talks with teachers, neighbors, and strangers when my son does something odd.  But  right now, this day,  he seems okay. WIth Rex, and all kids with Aspergers, everyday is different.  There is always a calm before the storm. 

So, that in a nut shell is why I have been away.  Sure I have baked a few goodies, usually to make myself feel better, but did I have the thought to take a picture?  Nope.  I suppose THINKING of taking a picture does not really count now does it?  I can't even remember what I made!  What a scramble my brain has become! 

Comments

[Mom]

We;ve missed your blog....can't wait to see everyone soon.

[Keli Horton]

Hi Andrea, I missed your blog and hope that things go a little more smoothly with you and your son.

[Suz Broughton]

Andrea:
I'm sorry things haven't been going as well as we all have hoped for Rex. I hope that you can look back at this time and see it as a positive change you were forced to make, not a negative one. If he is doing well with the transition then maybe you are all on your way :)
As far as feeling guilty for wanting a little bit of "you" outside of your family, this is something most moms deal with, not just one's with special needs. But I know you and I know how much you love your kids, how much you do for them, how much you put your heart and soul into mothering them, so I know your guilt is felt probably deeper than most of us. Hugs to you my friend. I wish there were something I can do to help you. I would encourage you to still take a little time for yourself, but don't feel pressured to write here (or on Facebook) if you don't have time. We will all be here when you get back.
LOVE YOU TO PIECES!
Suz
Sorry this is rambling :)